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2010-01-03T20:29:00.001+08:00

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because we all need a fresh start.

2010 HAHAHAHAHA

2010-01-01T02:24:00.002+08:00

HELLO AGAIN FOR THE SECOND TIME I'M WAITING FOR MY HAIR TO DRY BEFORE SLEEPING!! ^^
Back from kh's countdown alrd HAHA it was rly fun :D :D GUITAR HERO SPAM!!!!!! Muse's Assasin = KILLER TTM HAHAHAHAHHAH, MAHJONG YAY I never win again! (S +while teaching A how to play+: MUO1!!! MUO1!!!! MUST MUO1!!! *gets rly agitated* AHAHAHA SUPER FUNNY), Wii FIT HULA HOOPS/YOGA HAHAHAHAH!!!, + Martini which wasn't that bad HAHAHA but according to a certain someone it tasted like nailpolish and how he knows nobody knows HAHAHAH

Anw we were counting down all wrong HAHAHAHA cuz everyone got excited and stuff but some of the 3K guys closer to the tv corrected us HAHAH HENG PLZ :D

ANYWAY FIRST SONG OF THE YEAR GOES TO MILEY CYRUS WITH NONE OTHER THAN PARTY IN THE USA. HAHAHAHA PWNZ PWNZ BUTTERFLIES FLY AWAY!! ~.~
And first meal goes to V & J at tampines Macs HAHAHA cuz it looked so golden and good *.*

+ I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S 2010 ALRDY SUPER SURREAL!!!!
O LEVELS THIS YEAR AHAHAHAH GG TTM!! CHINESE RESULTS CMNG OUT IN 13 DAYS HAHAHAH DIE DIE DIE ): ):

Oh and and before I forget, C's epic quote from LAST YEAR: "MY BALLS WENT BANKRUPT" HAHAHA

ANW 2010 KUAI LE!!! ^^

2009

2009-12-31T20:04:00.003+08:00

Hello, last post of 2009 while I wait for my hair to dry, meeting Amandy at 9 later to go to kh's house for the countdown :D I can't believe 2009's ending alrdy, so fast D: D: D: And since everyone's doing some 2009 post I shall do one too :D

3L!

+ I thought 3L sucked at first but I don't now okay cuz 3L proved to be quite awesome ^^

+ surviving Lam and the Hand, Jiang and her Bangs (HAHA most original teacher, bangs since sec1), Neo and his Mole, McZarinah, Moky and THE HORROR exams :D

+ got to know some awesome people like hairy (fine BE THAT WAY) + mel (EAT BIG FOOD/UNICORNS FROLICKING IN THE FIELD) + Amandy (Organized mess YAH RIGHT) + Woonkee (STUPID AMERICAN) + Vanessa (evil pao of flaming doom!)+ jax the huge himbo + other 3L people :D

+ WE HAD OUR MOMENTS HAHAH, ICE SKATING/FIELD FROLICKING/FROZEN YOGURT/BIG MEALS/DYING IN CLASS HAHAAH/THE LAST LUNCH ect :D

+ BIMBOS FTW 4 EVER AND EVER

AHGUITAR <3

+ SYF YAY! Feeling rly scared before performing then rly exhilerated after performing, then happy x2 when Mr Shi mentioned GOLD WITH DIAMONDS :D :D

+ The 1348170238471234561273884991283 practises, Mulata spam + Les reeves du martin (and the donut story HAHA)+ the new horrible latin dance song :D :D, &&& THE BEST IS STAYING BACK AFTER PRAC TO PLAY/HAVING DINNER TGT/GOING OUT AFT PRAC (18chefs/Ikea) ^^

+ Farewell 09! rainbow jumping + barbecue! + spam camwhoring + masks :D :D :D

OBS+GIRLIES ^^

+ The awesome people I have no name for HAHAHAH jo py sj joyous deb xiu ky :D :D :D YAY RECESSES + NEOPRINTS + MANY MANY CONCERTS TGT + MANY MANY MOVIES + ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS 2 FTW 4 EVER

+ OBS. Tockseng QQ ^^ what more can I say.

RANDOM DE REN ^^

+ OTHER AWESOME PEOPLE WHO DON'T FALL INTO THE ABOVE GROUPS :D FOR BEING THERE 24/7 7/24 AND MAKING MY YEAR SLIGHTLY MORE AWESOMEZXZXXX

I AM NOW DAMN LATE BYEBYE!! ^^ HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :D

I'm just the man on the balcony singing nobody will ever remember me

2009-12-30T21:29:00.002+08:00

He's no you.

Happy eve of new year's eve, have two solid weeks of tests from the second day of school onwards .

No more dreaming like a girl so in love with the wrong world

2009-12-26T22:27:00.002+08:00

I have had enough of tripping over your loopholes, and I am done with hope.

:D

2009-12-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

LAM'S STILL OUR FORM + CHEM TEACHER NEXT YEAR HAHAHA DIE ALRDY CHEM GG LIAO HAHHAHAH BUT ANW TODAY (ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS 2!!!!!!!! + JUST ACIA + math D: + SOMERSET 313!!!!) WAS AWESOMEEEE :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
And I ran into Melanie Melina and Melissa on the way back!! ^^

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALVIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNN HAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!!

I'm gna curl up with Animal farm, eat subway cookies, text, and wait for christmas now BYE HEHE :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! ^^

how many times can I break till I shatter

2009-12-23T21:30:00.003+08:00

Hello world, it's the eve of the eve of christmas and the christmas songs on the radio are rly getting on my nerves alrdy ):<

Okay cuz I can't be bothered to string coherent sentences together,

(i) AVATAR IS AWESOME GO WATCH IT!!!!!!!!!!!

(ii) SUPER EXCITED FOR ALVIN & THE CHIPMUNKS 2 TMR!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D

(iii) 313 :D

(iv) Salvation army wheeeeeeeeeee

(v) I have decided that I'm gna drive a pink car (cuz Clara and I saw one today) when I grow up HAHAH (okay I can alr visualise *certain* people calling me bimbo -.-)

(vi) FINALLY HAD FROLICK AFTER A MILLION YEARS ^^

(vii) Really gna die when school reopens -_- Slacked while clara chionged SBQ today, saturday with Leste better be good ._.

If wishes were horses, beggars would ride.

2009-12-20T04:10:00.001+08:00

Hello today I find myself plagued with insomnia.

(1) I have been thinking of you of late.

I miss your text messages you know, and I don't know what happened in June but it's never been the same again. (maybe that showed how precarious our friendship actually was) Okay that's not the point, the point is that I miss you but I don't dare tell you directly because things have changed and it'll be awkward and I know that it won't ever be the same again so what's the point, and besides you're moving on and graduating and all.
But in case you ever do see this I rly enjoyed climbing the hill with you every morning (when we heard rolling marbles on the train and you said it was a ghost playing with them) for that short period of time, and I liked studying with you and C and Y (you know that one time at mcdonalds where I scribbled all over your planner), and I liked going home with you after practise (and getting baguetts from delifrance), and I miss your notes (dum dum dee dum).
It's too late to regret not cherishing those times (why does this always happen?)
And you know maybe one day a million years later I'll see you on the streets or at the mall and stuff and I'd rly like to think that we'd stop for a drink or a meal and catch up on lost time but you know nothing like that ever happens in reality so I guess I won't ever really talk to you again, and I can't remember the last time we really talked.

Love from the Frenchxzx Bimbozxz/muaji cheeks/person whom having an sms conversation with is like throwing a boomerang into outer space.

(2) I haven't been thinking much of you recently (only today) and seeing that quote just now made me think of you again (to be exact the night I told you that, ran away from the moth, and got you into trouble)

And honestly, I don't have anything to say to you (good riddance said it all) but sometimes I do wish I could turn back time.

(3) Lastly, I don't know what to think about you.

I want to let go but I'm not sure if I could cope.

how close is close enough

2009-12-15T20:31:00.000+08:00

Hello, my astounding smartness has once again made me uncontactable since yesterday afternoon and it's gna last until tmr afternoon D: So yeah sorry if I didn't pick up/didn't reply any smses.

(1) I was bored on the train so I messed with the security settings on my phone and ended up blocking my sim card :/
(2) The wireless connection is going on strike too and it's so. agonizingly. slow.
(3) AND muttons to midnight aren't on today ):
(4) And I think I'm coming down with smthng, headaches and chapped lips and horrible lip sores ._. It now hurts to smile.
(5) I think I've stopped dropping so much hair but it's growing out crinkly D:
(6) Starting school in <20 days. GG ttm.
(7) START OF YEARS looming and no bloody revision done at all. Oh god the thought of suffering through chemistry and history and ss and chinese again. Shoot me naaooooooo
(8) Undone holiday homework. Good job liying.

On the bright side I realised this year wasn't that bad afterall (despite having close friends in almost every class but 3L (at the start of the year at least), a neverending succession of godawful teachers, sitting through exam after exam, getting caught for attire and other stupid reasons and being constantly hounded for homework), got to know some awesome people and had some awesome times, gold with honours and my maiden syf experience, crazy fun chalets and barbeques :D

Best of all WE'RE GNA GRADUATE NEXT YEAR :D :D :D :D :D :D
No more horrible principals and teachers, no more crazy exams/remedials/homework-dishing, no more stupid no-drawstring and various other retarded (and largely redundant) attire rules and checks YAY :D
(Okay it'll be sad leaving friends and juniors and some teachers and there's still the Os to get through but still it's excitingggggg hhehehe ^^)

Bah alright I'm gna try to psycho myself into doing homework now bye :D

october words

2009-12-13T01:19:00.002+08:00

I wish I could start anew but that means I would have to let go.

And I could never do that.

Okay I knew I shouldn't have listened to all those emo songs :/
Today (now yesterday but heck) was a drama and bugis, yesterday was iluma, the coffee bean and The Princess and the Frog, tomorrow's suntec and guitar.

put a ring on it

2009-12-12T20:52:00.003+08:00

WATCH THE DAMN THING UNTIL IT ENDS HAAHAHAHAHAH IT'S MADNESS!!!!!
MAJOR CUTE AHHAHAHAHAAHAH *spasms and dies*

24TH DECEMBER FASTER DATE ME OUT TO WATCH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
& Disney's Princess and the Frog was DAMN AWESOME :D

as I chased the end of your rope

2009-12-10T22:26:00.006+08:00

Very happy recently, reaching the bleddy airport at 6 in the damn morning to send the people-going-to-china-to-study off (while nursing a cup of coffee and swollen eyes), watching new moon (Jacob BLACK pwns Edward plz), losing terribly at monopoly, ridiculous pictionary at ray's house, trying to brainwash everyone with the mysterious ticking noise song from the awsome POTTER PUPPET PALS!!!, retarded project & running arnd in a box airplane, screaming like nthng and getting killed a million times in some stupid xbox game, swimming then pigging out on sushi, shopping (bah), cycling then camping at PSR library to do work/laugh at yannis teaching Ljing how to fold shruiken(?) and idk where the rest of my holidays went ^^
+ there was a rly nice guy at The Coffee Bean today :D

Pictures will be uploaded anothr day cuz I'm super tired now hahaha bye, chem intensive with M tmr so giving class outing a miss ): Super scared of school reopening next year ):

Lastly I know this is a dumb thing to say but I RLY RLY AM GROWING FAT ):
(and yes I'm still balding)

In the silence it became so very clear
That you had long ago disappeared
And I cursed myself for being surprised
That this didn't play like it did in my mind

2009-12-08T23:54:00.001+08:00

last night's dream
I held your hand
and asked if you would be
forever mine
together you and me

and we both know
you're everything I need

Our lips were cold as clay, we couldn't speak anyway

2009-12-03T22:52:00.001+08:00

Class chalet was epic ^^
random guitar thing (everyone started painting each other), watched 2012 w angie before chalet and got damn freaked out and spilt popcorn all over her, met amandy and to the chalet for a failed BBQ, ordered macs and had Mahjong/horror movies/drinking game until 4 in the morning, last round of Tuth before sleeping, woke up at 6 to find Angie and some guys playing some dumb betting game so joined in, went for breakfast after a few rounds and wanted to bowl but the damn alley was closed, went back to chalet to play cheat and stuff and wait for the others to get up, went to wild wild wet with some people, took gay rides, some guys joined, more gay rides (almost dying in the wave pool cuz I listed to johan -_-), some girls joined, gay rides before it started raining and then some of us ran to KFC for lunch, then decided to go back to the chalet but everyone was at the bowling alley and we were locked out, therefore I climbed to the balcony at the kitchen and went in to unlock the door, had a bath, random jumping around, went to Ehub and attempted to get alcohol for another drinking game, failed so settled for sparking juice and went back again for the drinking game (shaun's reactions damn funny srs), last round of mahjong before leaving w woonkee amandy deon and johan ^^

I think this is gna turn out to be one of the best holidays ever, but next year's gna be awful with soys and olvls and crap ):

the words remain well hidden
In front of this girl who does not ask
Any better than to be loved
But you just do not know how to take yourself there
Your throat tightens and your heart beats more beautiful
While your eyes are on her

Yesterdays

2009-11-28T20:20:00.003+08:00

I woke from a dream last night
I dreamt that you were by my side
Reminding me I still had life
In me

I remember you like yesterday, yesterday
I still can't believe you're gone, oh...
I remember you like yesterday, yesterday
And until I'm with you, I'll carry on

x

(1) Kite-runner inspired (vain) attempts at kite flying near my crib before it rained like nothing (Clara: Before rain got good wind) and we scurried off to the void deck and camped there eating rubbbish and taking random pictures with Mel's Big Camera and it was real fun ^^

(2) Helping out at the Salvation Army's games day ^^

(3) The day we went shopping for Farewell present materials which resulted in shuttling from Plaza sing to Bras brasah to Takashimaya orchard/Ngee Ann City, The Frog Woman's nian nian de, and awesome ice cream, Dark chocolate > Hazelnut > Mint plz

(4) Staying back after practise to do up the farewell presents, realising too late we had no paintbrushes so we handpainted until I rooted through the dusty drawers at the back and found paintbrushes, glitter, sequins, glue and the like. Then there was shinythingspam (we had an unawesome time cleaning it up) and we decided to call Mcdelivery but they couldn't deliver due to 'adverse weather conditions' so being ravenous savages we epic-ran to the MRT station and got wet like nothing before a very satisfactory meal at macs and frisking around the malls at tampines, during which I discovered that a certain kind of candy I had seen in a book years ago and thought looked really nice wasn't nice at all.

(5) Getting the Samsung jet in white!! yayheheheheh

(6) Discovering the joy of unlimited smses :D

(7) went for part of the amazing race runthrough before guitar class. Also discovered that the Indian food at the T1 foodcourt's good :D

(8) PLAYING POKEMON!!! *epic music*

(9) Horrible performance at City square -_- Awesome lunch @ 18chefs after that though. PSYDUCKKKKK~ >D

(10) Swimming until our skin wrinkled like unironed clothes and feeling real fit until the KFC spam which prlly made us regain the lost fats -_-

(11) Meeting up with people I haven't seen in a year and more cheap thrills at daiso, spending money on stupid japanese-looking money-scamming machines (okay got some dumb frog in the end but still), escaping clingy salesmen ._., taking lots of jumpshots, slathering on the nailpolish at the face shop, and secretly getting each other stuff behind each other's backs hahahah damn win no one suspected anything except vania who was in on everything -_-
(I'll upload the pictures to fb soon heh sorry sorry)

(12) AWESOME GUITAR FAREWELL :D Yayzxzxzxzxzzxzxzxzxz luv ttm hehehe, spent the morning + afternoon being pervy stationmasters with Cheryl A (scandalous pics ~.~), went to Giant to get the barbecue stuff and started throwing balloons everywhere oopz, went to PSR park to play sea, started raining again, got drenched, saw a rainbow, hijacked someone's bike and went cycling, came back helped out with the food a little and spammed pictures ^^

(13) More Plaza sing + orchard trips :D

(14) Hello you, 1 year anniversary today ^^

Clara's prlly fighing off tigers and clawing through jungles or smth now. hehe. Have fun in Ceeeeeeeeeeeeebu meh you gna miss the class chalet ):

x

seeing that made me smile. and smile. and smile. and smile.

and smile.

doesn't mean anything

2009-11-28T00:15:00.010+08:00

Farewell photos part I

Farewell photos part II

P.s. Starstruck (3oh!3 feat. Katy Perry) topped the charts this week yay ^^
P.p.s Mc Cartney's Body language came second though -_- Ughhhh eew jesse mc cartney.

Farewell 2009

2009-11-27T00:02:00.002+08:00

A day of awesome memories encapsulated in 547 pictures, muddy converses, raspy voices, parting gifts, and a heart full of nostalgia.

Mrs Koh (while barbecuing): "Tonight I must go home and breathe oxygen."

♥ ahs guitar ensemble

26/11/09

we'll be stepping on eggshells tonight

2009-11-25T21:13:00.005+08:00

Inspired, happy, and so in love (with mint nail polish at under 3$ a pop and awesome friends). Fingers crossed for good weather tmr! :>

I'm doin' fine
And the sun often shines
What are you thinking?
At the worst of my mind
With this thunderbird wine
Baby, I'm drinking-
Only you know me

xedit

Today, I came across the definition of "creeper" in Urban Dictionary. "Creeper: A person who does weird things, like stares at you while you sleep, or looks at you for hours through a window." First thing that came to my mind? Twilight. MLIA

HAHAHAHAHEM CREEEEEEEEEPY >D

^^

2009-11-22T23:04:00.005+08:00

Hello my pretties, I have been an indisputable genius by deleting all my contacts even though I have no backup copy :) And I now have a new number, and since I don't have 99.5% of my contacts back yet I am unable to update the 99.5% with my new number, and therefore I sincerely beg of you to leave me an offline msg on msngr with your number ^^
Meanwhile do me a huge favour and DO NOT TEXT OR CALL ME.

Love from the Indisputable Genius

No way in hell, I said, not even remotely close to the maybe-only-if-I-were-held-at-gunpoint region of perhaps.

welcome to the new deja vu

2009-11-19T23:18:00.003+08:00

A brew for shortlived happiness.

Like vines

2009-11-13T22:08:00.000+08:00

Oh god Party in the USA topped the charts this week -_- Shoot me srsly.

Lessons today were relatively slack so V, A & I started talking about horror movies during N's Amath, and guess what I went and watched Orphan. I'm gna kill you Amanda Ong Mo Gu I swear your Esther is bloody freaky when school reopens again you die.

I don't know you but I know that all too well.

x

I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved

time for miracles

2009-11-12T21:08:00.000+08:00

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself
And hidden in the public eye
Such a stellar monument to loneliness
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
Perfect make-up, but you're barely scraping by
But you're barely scraping by...

Well this is one time, well this is one time
That you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone
Or anyone at all...or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places that you've come to fear the most
It's the place that you have come to fear the most

x

Hahahah okay I'm going through some emo song phase right now, can't help it. Anw I feel very 幸福 now heh so gay. ALPs are still gruesome but okay life is secretly rather nice heh :D Ripping some poor unfortunate creature's eyeball to shreds (literally) and turning it inside out in search for the lens is fascinating in a macabre way, and having Comm meetings with the Koh ("EEEE DOG MEAT!" said She)is rather amusing though she talks so bloody much, and yay for chasing people with sporey fingers and eating CHEEZY CRUST PIZZAS :D :D and running around Uniqlo dressing rooms :D and KFC dinner tnight was so amusing, I fail as a spy/PI, and Someone needs to stop burping so loudly half the room turns to look -_- Ohyeah and watching the sec2s getting their subject combi makes me feel positively ancient, hehehe Alicia took core history too except with physics :D And I'm looking forward to doing the farewell stuff + the actual thing and best part is that THE HOLIDAYS ARE TANTALIZINGLY CLOSE :D

BUT I'M BALDING ENOUGH TO MAKE WIGS
!#$!@#$!@!$%##$!@$#!@#!$!@#%^@&^#$%#$#!@#$!

Liar (it takes one to know one)

2009-11-11T21:35:00.000+08:00

She said, "no one is alone the way you are alone"
And you held her looser than you would have if you ever could have known
Some things tie your life together, slender threads and things to treasure
Days like that should last and last and last

x

Chinese O levels were ghastly to say the least, still have chem + bio tests tmr and friday, god how sadistic can it get. And I haven't listened in chem or bio since... ._.
Lots of weird stuff tied to the rly long ago past coming up, damn gay but it's still kinda interesting and stuff, I hope wednesday works out :D

And please go jump off a cliff, or go impale yourself on like a skewer or smth because you deserve to die the worst possible death anyone could have. God I thought you were different or smth but you're just like any other. No wait you're actually worse cus like at least the rest of them bastards didn't try to pretend to be someone they weren't. Don't know how you managed to maintain the facade but then again I don't rly care anymore. Never thought I'd say this to you but you're the Greatest Jerk I have Ever Met.

Goodbye and good riddance to bad rubbish.

a light that never goes out

2009-11-09T18:01:00.008+08:00

明天有O水准华文考试，会死得很惨 ):

247. WHEN SHE TEXTS YOU ITS BECAUSE SHE MISSES YOU.
WHEN SHE DOESN'T TEXT YOU IT IS BECAUSE SHE IS WAITING FOR YOU TO MISS HER.

And your heart's like an engine

2009-11-08T21:41:00.001+08:00

Teahouse on friday :D

Played I Have Never and I Have on the way, the whole tea making experience wasn't my cup of tea but it was pretty fun nonetheless :D
Pangsehed Amandy Angie Jx and Johan to find the guitarians after tht :x sorry ah. Then we ran off to subway and frolicked in U heh.

Bodyworks on wednesday :D

Was pretty cool, best part was tht we got to pon one day of class ^^

Lastly this is what happens when you fall asleep during chem/bio ._.
"Everyday got new tattoo one"

Chinese papers on tuesday, totally ggfied srsly + prac spam this week >:
But it's the last week of school! :D
Okay I feel crazy lethargic now, bye.

2009-11-07T21:34:00.004+08:00

I knew it'd hurt me afterwards
but it never changed a thing.

突然觉得生命无比的空虚

Who cried a river and drowned the whole world

2009-11-05T20:06:00.004+08:00

I have everything to say, yet conversations are still made of static. Stars run out of fuel and collapse under their own weight. In the same manner I will amass unsaid words until they crumble and fold into themselves and this heart becomes a black hole.

And don't offer me your false solace because you never meant a single word that came out of your lying mouth.

Everything is really nothing more than nothing

How many days in a year
She woke up with hope but she only found tears
And I can be so insincere
Making her promises never for real

Kite runner

2009-11-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

"For you, a thousand times over"

):

2009-11-01T22:45:00.001+08:00

i dwna go school tmr ):
wei shen me ): ):

on a different note, uniqlo hoodies are the Love with a capital L and I got 2 bucks scammed by superglue that doesn't even stick paper -_-

And rainy days are poetic :>

2009-10-31T22:38:00.001+08:00

what the fuck is wrong with you.

x

2009-10-31T21:52:00.000+08:00

I thought I had it all figured out.
I guess I thought wrong.

These hands are meant to hold

2009-10-30T20:10:00.003+08:00

today's technically the last day of school (not taking into consideration two solid weeks of extra classes for us) and it's amazing how quickly time passes us by ._. Idk why but I still rmbr the last day of school last year, hahah it was full of camwhoring & fun & teary eyes but this year's felt rly normal, perhaps cus we've another year tgt or cus we have two more weeks of classes.

Anw balloons were unearthed in the guitar room today, and I lost two balloon fights to hailong cus he's taller with longer arms, and leste and I discovered too late that balloons are difficult to dispose of so we tried to give them to kids without seeming to paedophile-y but instead got wth are you doing to my kid stares from their parents -_-

Yesterday was officially the Grossest Day of the Year, June Y showed us the beginning of Perfume: The Story of a Murderer (R21 plz, I googled it) and to say that it was crazy disturbing is a huuuuuuuge understatement. And as if the story itself wasn't gory enough the scenes were bloody sick. (yes that was a pun) Immediately after that we dissected a kidney in bio lab.

Lastly there has been this huge spike in Lam's nonsense, which sparked off ridiculous quotes like:
"If you push me to a corner, the dog will jump over the
wall!"
she was actually shouting at us when she said that but it was so absurd that after she said it everyone started laughing

Life would be perfect if (1) we didn't have the imminent Chinese Os hanging over our heads like death sentences (2) we didn't have two bloody weeks of classes (3) we didn't have an inhumane amount of chinese work to do this weekend

I wna go back to the carefree lower sec days ):

alibis and lying eyes

2009-10-28T21:22:00.003+08:00

Such an existence is really rather exhausting
I wish I could be someone entirely different

Sometimes some things are better off unsaid

x

.

2009-10-26T22:11:00.003+08:00

ahh shit I'm losing a lot of hair I swear it's rly freaking me out okay I know it's shallow and bimbo and dumb and crap but still it's bloody scary shit wtf am I gna do ):

this is

2009-10-25T21:14:00.003+08:00

life's good. L1R5 high like sky but at least I didn't fail anyth. Having fun recently, have to start studying again though (by decree of Lammy). Good luck for the Os people tmr.

the last chapter of our correspondence.

twenty twenty surgery

2009-10-21T22:38:00.002+08:00

Post EOY days are awesome :> Temporary awesomeness is still awesome. While it lasts (which will not be much longer, sighhhhhh chinese O lvls + 2 weeks of extra classes) Anw pictures cus I've been doing nthng but post random snippets of songs recently ._.
(Yes very long post cus there's finally time :D)
(Yes lots of brackets)

When we crashed tan's house to watch Ice age. (More specifically) when Amandy's hot sabertooth-already-extinct-furry-nonhuman Diego was mauling someone. Or getting mauled. Something like that ._. And she pulled my ponytail cus idk it reminded her of Diego's tail or smth -_- Gay ttm.
But the movie was good :D Laughed like crazy hahahah dodo birds are dumb, was slightly late for the grad ceremony later & we entered the carpark like vips 8D Ice age 3 is awesome too hehehehehehe god the dino kids are crazy cute 8D

This is tan attempting to camouflage with her mouldy green hoodie and equally mouldy green bag ._. Can't rmbr which paper this was after, it was the day it rained and we made a mad rush in jackets/ah mah sweaters to the bus stop ._. I think it was when everyone was taking physics heheheh :D & the MUOGU I kept trying to pluck (despite violent protests/threats from tan/jx/amandy/angie). I like mushrooms.

and the *insert Melody voice* Magical Hole in the Holey Fence which leads to a Magical Field of Rainbows and frolicking Unicorns. Or smth :D
Otherwise known as Frolicking in the Field. Which is awesome fun unless it just rained :x
Then it's muddggy and gross and full of frogs. And screaming people, i.e. Amandy :D

Mugging @ Whitesands library cafe with piying + awesome sinful oily food (= coronary heart disease) after we were banished from the airport :D + ID PHOTOS!!!!!!! :DDDDDDD
I secretly think that Py's hair is nice. :x

Post-biopaper mugging at changi airport before we were chased out ._. And my awesome pikachu :D

& the notsoawesome sports day/Ljing de yan jing (chio right i take one :D)/lots of fail attempts at glam jumpshots. Idk how ky does it srsly -_-

And some prehistoric preexams day when we went cycling and soaking at ECP + another prehistoric day before the english oral

Before the dumb history paper, Diffusion (ver 2.0) with mel + unglam picture with Angieeeee

Anw bottom line is tht life now is awesome (though my vocab is dying), plus I haven't failed anyth yet so far :D Yay Liying :D
Ate a lot of crap i.e. sakae today with the Stupid American & jx (god I will never try prawns again)/POPeyes with debz and shelton yesterday, doing lots of dumb stuff i.e. hide&seek (sorry i've no better name) at tampines 1 with the SA, jx, tan & her friend jon. And dumb clues like "we can see the sun from here" ("Oh that means you at the rooftop") ._.
Back to braving (& being gay in) classes with Amandy, and unparalleled, unrivaled, awesomeeeeeeeee slacking :D

Watched 3 movies at 3 theaters on 3 consecutive days with 3 different groups of people, I liked Imagine that (with F!) & 500 days of summer (with Yeonjae + andrew + cheeyan), it was damn sadddddd I swear DDDD:
Cloudy with a chance of meatballs (Jo/py/yx/yj) was a waste of time -_- But after that py and I went poking around arab street, ended up walking to some very indianyish place with this awesome shop I got my (according to Shelton) taupok bag at :D

Lastly,

BLOODY CUTE RIGHT!!!!! If I were a dino I'd want my kids to look like this :D

No more long posts until the next ice age 8D Yaybye.

+ less lunching out/movies cus... God just think about it, 160gb iPod classic *_* plus it's taking a huge toll on my allowance ._. How depressing

belle of the boulevard

2009-10-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
But keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard

+

2009-10-18T20:24:00.000+08:00

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

THE EPI(C)TOME OF AWESOMENESS

2009-10-16T21:53:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA NO MORE PAPERS FEEL MY JOY!!!!!!!!!!!!

second guessing at my heart

2009-10-13T18:43:00.002+08:00

7 PAPERS DOWN 8D 8D HEHEHEH I CAN SMELL THE FREEDOM ALR~
Chem was epic, history was ttly gg cus the LON came out for SBQ and I didn't study tht, and no stalin came out ._. But at least gorbachev did yay~ 8D

Hehehe chinese papers tmr!

Mutually Assured Destruction

2009-10-12T20:26:00.003+08:00

Conquered the godawful bio paper today, I'm srsly so glad, hahahaha now to focus on the chem + history papers tmr ): Major memory work = uuber killerzxzxzxzx
I think I'm going to fail chemistry, but owell even though hope is for the hopeless I'm gna keep my fingers crossed (also in hope that Facist Japan won't come out tmr).

This time next week we'll be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

the other side of sandpaper

2009-10-09T19:44:00.006+08:00

Amath lit and ss papers down :D Think I'll pass Amath for once yay 8D 8D
So lazy to study for chem or any other subject for that matter ): Can't wait for the papers to be over, haven't rly gone out in ages. Have been listening to Muttons to Midnight a lot thanks to Amandy, they're rly hilarious srsly hahahah, it's like rly late at night and they're still rly high ._. And speaking of midnight, midnight hour is awesome :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

High distinction for the New south wales english thingy, I hope Mr C. sees that. (And he can go shrivel up and die for being bloody irritating and a.p. and not knowing how to shave properly)

and if you think this guy is cute plz get your eyes checked. Or jump off a cliff :)

preposterous

2009-10-07T06:01:00.005+08:00

Quite numb now. Strangely don't feel much, just feel rly foolish and stuff. In hindsight, pinning my hopes on nothing but quaint daydreams was absolutely stupid and typical of me. I should never have trusted you, feel like a victim of a scam case for some twisted reason ._.
But the good thing is, I realize that I wasn't exactly as sad as I thought I would be :D

friends are the best yay ^^

hehehe

2009-10-04T21:00:00.003+08:00

I'M GNA BE BAIKA TMR >D

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

Owl city \m/

PAPERS START ON THURSDAY AND I'M STILL NOT SRSLY REVISING. Liying GG liao.

I've got birds in my ears and a devil on my shoulder

2009-10-01T20:20:00.002+08:00

After studying 3/4 of the cold war chapter I deduce that evilness starts in October

October 1917, the communist revolution in russia.
October 1949, Russia set up German Democratic Republic in East Germany
October 1949, China came under communist rule
October 1962, first of the Cuban Missile Crisis events
October 2009, students sit for the EOY papers >:

And today I left my phone at the mrt station and the nice guy who picked up my phone called Joyce first, then he called Jx, who then called Clara who then went to get my phone (thanks ah :D) and with it scolded me for being a careless bimbo :x
thank god, losing two phones in a year is absolutely absurd ._.

today I didn't manage to scare anyone but amandy diffused her organized messiness to me, hahah disaster ttm srsly, and we spent class boomz boomz boomzing around singing I got a feeling (that tnight's gna be a good night, that tnight's gna be a good good night).

My itsy bitsy teeny weeny yellow polka dot bigini is boomz! (said A)

okay rl's situation is kinda sad actually, so many people laughing at her but well.... ...

k back to the Emath ppr.

stalin x gabe

2009-09-30T21:23:00.005+08:00

Actually right I think Stalin looks quite cute and benevolent cos he's fat and stuff heheh :x ok that's prejudice + labelling, but fat is cuteee and pinchable what *_*
Ok but he's a pervy paedophile so...... ._.

And I spent today obsessing over

GABE SAPORTA!!!!!!!! He doesn't have abs but still ... 8D
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabeeeeeeeeeeeehehehehehe even his name sounds sexy 8D 8D
I make them good girls go baaad~

And my new favourite pasttime in school is jumping out at people :D

Ok I should go study, today I watched TV, lunched out, somemore still slack in class and take nap. Die liao, I study barely 2 hours on average how -_____-
(and I know people who chiong home then study until 12 everyday oh god)

8 days D; D; D;

the boy who blocked his own shot

2009-09-29T19:19:00.005+08:00

I need to trim my fringe ._. + look at the pentower (I think that's my history essay it's standing on), it was all chio and majestic until kaiho or johan threw his eraser or smth at it -_-

9 days to eoy and I haven't even finished one subject z.z, rly freaked over bio cos all the names are starting to mutate until they all look disturbingly similar, and nothing from any subject seems to stay in my mind, oh godddddd gg ttm.

And how was I supposed to know that French fries originated from the USA, they're french fries for a reason right arghhh, fatal blowwwwwwwwww

Now to brood over the cold war + mockingbirdy >:

Biopolar :@

2009-09-27T21:16:00.009+08:00

Today, I did Amath trigo until I wanted to die of boredom (and confusion).
But I could do *some* questions, yay Mr N better be proud of me cos the only time I learnt something from his lesson was when he walked over and said my graphs were ugly -_- Hurray for math tuition though ^^
Am still gna flunk tmr's trigo functions test though, but owelllllllllllllllllll when have I not flunked amath.

School recently has been amusing much *winkz clara* :D
Days r spent slacking in class (ok what's new) and diffusing the love of chicken, building awesome pwnage pencastles (thanks to my awesome myraid of colour pens, have t get those pics from tan) & ponning dumb waste of time extra lessons & the equally retarded zhong qiu jie celebration :>
AND PLAYING BUBBLE TOWN ON CLARA'S PHONE!!!!!! NEW HIGH SCORE OKAY >D

Went back for oral on saturday, stupid amandy came early hehe then the staircase to 3L was locked, so we took the unconventional way (meaning we climbed up the slope and jumped over the wall). AND AMANDY TOOK SO LONG HAHAHHAAH I swear it was damn hilarious, she was stuck up there screaming like hahahahhahahahaahhaahha until linting came and our combined efforts finally got her down :D
sorry lah amandy I went to your blog and saw what you posted about it and was reminded so yah. :D
and scaring angeline in the toilet is vehhhhh fun hehehhehe >D (I hope angeline doesn't read this, have a rly unglam pic in her phone)
and I ttly have to take pictures of amanda's organized mess. Epic ttm, hahhahah we were clearing it the other day and it was so dusty + there was a funny smell I SWEAR

And my english grade is gone alr, thanks to gay oral with gay pictures and gay eat-snails-in-france essays -_-

10 days to eoy zomg^134817302. Everyone panic!
I think I should do bio now, but I wna sleep and doing bio reminds me of the superxevilxmeanxbiased joy and that makes me saaaaaaaaaaad >:

I want to talk to you, but I don't have the slightest idea what we would say.

running through life with reckless disregard (now there's nothing to save)

2009-09-24T21:52:00.003+08:00

Paper 1s tmr, argh shoot me plz >:
If gong han + bao zhang bao dao doesn't come out I'm gna be so screweddddd (or be forced into normal chinese). I hope Tan's zai until cannot zai chinese phrases will help ._.

13 days to the papers, I should learn to be like ____ and run home study after school everyday instead of going out to eat and reaching home around 5 sighxzxzx.

Okay bye, now go read chinese. Oh god my hair is tangling again I dwna drop hairrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

If a man can't lie how can he speak

2009-09-23T22:27:00.003+08:00

Highly compressible piece of brown beancurd!

and I should stop eating chicken rice, because all the fatty acids + glycerol from that will congregate at my fatty arm area UGHHHHhhHhHHh okay that's what amandy says.

Time is now a luxury (increase in demand but decrease in supply, ugh inflation) which I am still spending lavishly in the most wasteful way, okay means i'm gna die soon and go into debt like communist USSR.

So tired argh, deja vu ttm (why does this always happen before the major papers) >:

And Liying smartly titrated without adding indicator today. DIE LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH k bye

rainbow veins

2009-09-21T18:32:00.003+08:00

Chem spa is so gna get me tmr tmr >: Have no idea how to calculate crap ughhhh bio was bad enough, I should go run into a wall for thinking that sucrose can diffuse out. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy liying whyyyyy

Anw am basically very dead for EOYS cos I was supposed to start studying ages ago and guess what @_@ (I haven't)
Thinking of all the biohistorychemamathemathchinese chapters to study makes me very very sad like the weather now. I wna sleep Z_z

I wish I were smart you know like those smart people who don't study but still score like -_- okay I don't mind being dumb but hardworking also.

But alas I am neither, oh what joy it is to be me. Long weekends = (1) attempted mugging at macs fail (2) reading lit while tanning/swimming fail (3) staying home study fail = totally unproductive = Liying dies

4 days to paper 1, 16 days to eoy ._.

The saltwater room

2009-09-19T21:38:00.002+08:00

'cause either way I'll break your heart someday
but leaving you is the last thing on my mind
so when I go
baby kiss real slow so I don't forget to make my way back home
when I go

Been quite happy, time to study though :>

always

2009-09-16T06:05:00.002+08:00

Hello you,

Everything's going to be alright somehow. Don't wry :>

memento vivere

2009-09-15T20:20:00.002+08:00

Alright it's about time I really started studying, will be going on semi-hiatus.

I. I am utterly disappointed in you. I don't know who you are
now.
II. I know you lied.
III. You aren't the only one with problems.
IV. Why do people I trust always let me down?
VI. I miss you.

bleed my heart to show

2009-09-14T19:58:00.000+08:00

Okay today wasn't that bad after all 8)
Had this gay fiasco during Amath cos Mr N confiscated my phone >: I foolishly left my sim card in my phone and after that I realised I kinda really need my SIM, so I wrote a dumb message to jx (who was sitting infront of the tcher's table with my phone) to help me take out my sim. AND it all would have gone well had mr N not intercepted the message -_- Hahahah jx still managed to get my sim out anw ^^ heheh thanks hor, owe you gatsby. Owell it was all kinda funny then. Then tan started laughing uncontrollably at my "Come join me my creepy brothers!!" (~ahem~ creepy people like N, Z, and Y). Okay then that sparked off Neoism and Creepism and the gay neoneoneoneoneomole! propaganda song.
Rest of the day was ok :> got a lot of ah lian comments about my hair though, but nvm it's smooth and straight and that overrules everything else 8D

She doesn't know what's right
She doesn't know what's wrong
She only knows the pain that comes from waiting for so long
And she doesn't count the teardrops
That she's cried while he's away
Because she knows deep in her heart
That he'll be back someday

The light's on in the window; she's waiting by the phone
Talking to a memory that's never coming home
She dreams of his returning and the things that he might say
But she'll always be the girl from yesterday
Yeh, she'll always be the girl from yesterday

Alright I should stop listening to emo songs. 24 days to EOY and 57 days to Chinese Os >:

travel all the miles again

2009-09-13T20:55:00.003+08:00

School tmr, sigh nooo not again, back to june Y asking me to take out all my earsticks and tchers like L pronouncing my full name so horribly and double periods of chinese and bio and the (not double period but still) equally horrifying Amath >:
And thanks to dickson's morbid pm I am now far too aware of the fact that eoys are 25 days away, 25 okay 25!!!

And I have been listening to emo songs that seem to say everything I wna, and god I am feeling so x extremely x sad x now. And it's alr been what, X months ._. ok and the prospect of school tmr hanging over my head like impending doom isn't helping matters much >:
I think I should stop hoping yknow, cos more hope = more disappointment, so really hope = disappointment, cos more will cancel each other out (algebra). miss you h, and it's not getting any better and I am clueless as to why >:
I'm so sorry, i don't know what to think now, maybe had I been smarter or prettier, or someone I'm not.
Alright snap out of it.

everything i said
wasn't what i meant
i hope you can forget
and i can leave all my regrets
behind tonight
and catch a flight to Boston
and come start a new life
and this time we can do it right

okay, once again EOYS R 25 DAYS AWAY.

moult

2009-09-12T11:01:00.001+08:00

RIP tan's Aweshum Limited-Edition Conversation-starter irritating cat-cow wallet ):
It has served dutifully, may it now rest in peace.

Tan be touched ok.

On thursday when we went back for intensive Bio remedial + Emath + Project/ My chio ex-phone whose loss I still mourn.

Okay and thanks amandy angeline and jx for wasting time with me the other day ^^
heheheh stupid slimming centre dares :X

And this is rebonded hair with bangs (@ changi airport's the coffee bean yesterday, with hot chocolate + marshmallows)
I am permanently terrified that the rebond will suddenly wear off. Ok paranoid. But I like having smooth straight hair even though when I tie it up it makes me look like an ah lian :>

And the weather's very tempting today, I wna cycle but no I must study since I havent done anything much this holiday other than play ._.
must study must study must study must study must study

9/11

2009-09-11T21:12:00.000+08:00

If I hadn't lost you, I wouldn't have met him.

S C A N D to the A to the L O U S

2009-09-08T20:11:00.003+08:00

You all are they gayest bunch of oversmart (L1R5 <10) people I have ever met but I still kinda luv you all heheh since sec 1 yayxzx :D
G FORCE IS AWESUM HEHEEH I LOVE TALKING GUINEA PIGS :D
AND I H8 FISH & CO AND I WILL NEVER EAT IT AGAIN ): Seafood is for losers!

Went to a polyclinic with Fiona this morning cos she was sick. Now I get what Sam Khoo said about Sg's healthcare system. Wait so long la wl, then they made us all put on masks and Fiona made me ask the mask-giver guy for a kid's mask cos it was cute -_- And I went to get a haircut after that, the person washing my hair was telling me about guys and how we as girls shouldn't trust them cos they're rly good at sweet talking and girl charming hahahahah. And then my stylist had the professional look about him so I left him to his devices, and he ended up styling my new bangs to curl in. And I spent the rest of today looking like a Noob with a capital N. -_- Nvm rebonding tmr, oh what a joyous occasion it will be :D Flat hair ftw 4eva!

Went to meet Tan Mel and Van to ice skate after that :D In the end all of us except V were late hahahah. Ice skating was fun, M looked like a skating cupcake with her flouncy dress, and the mute guy at the skate renting counter kept point to mel and hitting the countertop and laughing HAHAHAHAHAHA. Which prlly implies smth about her skating (and falling down) in Flouncy Pink Dress XD
Hahahaha V and T got scolded by some prissy little girl (who could skate better than me ughghghhh) for not wearing gloves and T talked back and V smirked at her so evil hor -_- and M was caught by the irritating kp showoff guy and therefore made to purchase overpriced durian seller construction worker gloves hahahahah sad x2. And I'm very jealous of people who can ice skate well DDDD:
Oh and I fell down and after that Tan fell down because of me, sorry ah :X

Okay now random pictures from very long ago hehhh ^^\/

Melody's gay domokun bag + jx's oreo. And melody acting artistic with the cam.

The sexy stolen from Ikea pencil I gave amandy. Which saved her life during bio mock spa 8D

Amandy's fei zhu.

And this was taken during Bio hahahaha see my pikachu :D

Bio again :D and my chio yummy macaron that's super dirty now sigh ):

Okay now I'm deciding between tumblr (heartsdisfigured.tumblr.com) and blogger cos blogger is still being irritating on my browser, and tumblr's fine but I have no idea how to mess with the template. Which I don't like. So owell.

Heheheh been rather happy recently, wheeeee ok holidays r awesum but after that is mug all the way, so gna die and it's not even midmonth and I'm brokeeee heh thanks to extensive going out recently and tmr's rebonding owellllll. No time to go out after this anw. D: D:

okay LIYING MUST STUDY. Bye.
And I'm falling sick. Played too hard I guess ):

braver

2009-08-31T21:44:00.001+08:00

I've moved somewhere else, not telling yet. Soon enough 8)
Have slacked a lot recently, means I have to chiong work tmr after tanning + swimming + dental sighzxzz.

I know what I said, and I know you think I meant it.

when you feel so tired but you can't sleep

2009-08-21T20:04:00.000+08:00

This week was downright disastrous D: Being late, screwed ezlink, screwed tests x1234862736, breaking another nail, bad hair days 24/7, onslaught of the emowave, and I missed singapore idol!!! ):
Okay but dinner today was very very very fun :DDD Mich came back tday! heheh shawn's psp also damn fun!! :D And clara brought her adorable parrot to school aaaah why does clara have all the cute toys D:
AND THE GUITAR ROOM IS HAUNTED I SWEAR!!!!!!
And I will never walk next to chin again because I did so today and I fell :/
The cut looks small and unpainful but it's bruising okay!!! Paainnnnnnnnnnn.

Okay may consider moving back to livejournal because blogger is very irritating now.
Yay I'm so glad I made it through this week. Okay life is getting boring but what dyou expect we have tests 4 out of 5 school days ):

bummer.

2009-08-20T06:17:00.000+08:00

Hello sad world, I am now realise that I battled my way through school, chinese remedial, and tuition yesterday only to die a worse death today. ):
Chinese essay first thing in the morning, damn impt bio test last thing today and I left my damn bio notes in school wtshit argh and I haven't finished studying chapter 9. Feeling very unprepared and very very vulnerable, bio is about the only subject I haven't flunked yet D: Sighzxzxzxzx.

Owell interrogating yesterday was fun :D

-

2009-08-18T20:33:00.000+08:00

Forever or never.

Guilty as charged

2009-08-17T22:08:00.001+08:00

I die for yan jiang tmr. DIE!!!!!!! I sound like some ang moh trying to act china. Dieeeee and my prep work is crap also D8
JB going to laser beam me with her eyes while I stand there and stutter in broken chinese infront of everyone ):

Nvm, after school tmr (after the doomed yanjiang and the horrors of writing another yanjianggao and the chinese common test I srsly think I'm going to fail) I'm gna watch 17 again again! :D

HEHEHEEH ZAC EFRON IS DAMN CUTE IN 17 AGAIN :D Even though he wears skinny jeans.

Oh and today I got a happy meal AHAHAH with the chio bimbo pink hello kitty mirror with ~secret compartment~ :D Pwn or what!!!! And also frolicked with mel + jx :D And I swam a while :D

OKAY BYE SLEEP EARLY WAKE UP EARLY STUDY CHINESE. Geekage!!! \m/

sorry.

2009-08-14T21:49:00.000+08:00

Oh I had a lot to say, was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

Nothing good will come of me.

._.

2009-08-13T18:43:00.001+08:00

(R)Mandaye says:
*you know. We shld make a game can. Whoever who insults the other first loses
*wa lao. i bet we both sure lose.
Liying says:
*LOL
*HAHAHAHA
*ok i bet you can't last 5 mins
*:D
(R)Mandaye says:
*you just insulted me
*hah!
*I won
*:D
Liying says:
*ASSHOLE
*LOL
*this is damn gay

takes a road to go nowhere

2009-08-13T17:58:00.000+08:00

I had this dream about a talking fish. It was my friend. And it died, and I was damn sad D: Srsly very sad D: D:
Today I passed the chem re re test yayxzxz finally. Exams coming. Starting to get worried about results. zZz don't wna see cml. Am desperate for a way out of chinese remedial DDDDDD:

Neverending bad hair days suck.

Alright but been rather happy recently 8)

Bye.

I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair

2009-08-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

hi happy birthday Singaporeeeee :D
this year's NDP wasn't that bad, I wna prance around in a kebaya too 8)

Singapore Idol season 3! Long weekends ftw :>

GG liaoooo

2009-08-08T13:19:00.000+08:00

The 3L barbecue last night was damn fun 8) Yay for playing with mel's slr, awesome sinful chicken wings!!!, taboo (fun but damn scary, ran away halfway) and the crash course in mahjong! :D hahah everytime zw comes near our luck goes down like no mother hahahah!! xD
Eh to think I almost didn't go, ok lucky mel and jx threathened me until I agreed to go -_-

Okay back to normal life, so sad have to study for the 18412387423 zillion tests and everything, + the 2-page long OBS reflection due next week. And the ppt which no one is doing but nvm. Tock seng gg.

I shall swear off boys and go be lesbo with mel. Yay.

Orchard l8r (aftr studying Joy's photosynthesis) yay^2 :D

-

2009-08-07T06:25:00.001+08:00

Dear you, and you, and you,

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you worry. I'm still okay, I'm still Liying, but I may not be who you knew me to be. Do you know that nothing makes me really happy anymore? Everything just feels very sketchy you know, like they don't mean a thing, at all. I begin to wonder why I live and I begin to wish I had never been born, and I know you don't want to hear that but it's the truth.
I don't know what's going on, I don't know where I'm going and I don't know where I'll end up. I feel like I'm wandering aimlessly and ending up even further gone than I was. I feel as if my life is amounting to a grand total of nothing.
Thanks for asking but I constantly don't feel okay, even though everything is perfectly fine. I don't know what's going on but don't worry about me, I think I'll make it through. I'm sorry for not confiding in you but how can I tell you all this?

P.s. I had a dream today and I wished it were true but I had to wake up and be sad all over again.

Love from a very bad friend,
Me.

you know that i hate this song (because it was written for you)

2009-08-05T21:13:00.000+08:00

I don't believe how lazy I am ._. like too lazy to finish this post.

Liying get off your ass and study.

image of your hopes and tragedies

2009-08-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wake up wishing I were dead.
Then maybe they'd remember me as the silly teenager who had everything but didn't know how to appreciate.
But that's not true because if I had anything to live for I would.

monday blues ttm

2009-08-03T06:07:00.000+08:00

Mondays suck. Especially when rudely awakened at 5:50a.m. in the morning when one had an awful time sleeping the night before. Mondays, of course, suck more with horrible bio amath and chem teachers. There's also double chinese but jb isn't that bad :/ And a chem test.

Ok sorry just irritated. No one deserves to be shouted at on a bloody Monday morning :/

El noi de la Mare

2009-08-02T20:38:00.003+08:00

I wanted to upload pictures (believe me I've accumulated quite a few) but I'm. so. lazyyyyy. Too bad then. Blogger still acting funny anw XD
This week was spent in very unfruitful funness :D Scaring ourselves silly with ghost stories, ministers' performance, Macs damn late at night, feigning sick, falling sick, being REALLY sick, handover, handover dinner, tests, tests, tests, screwed Amath test, the usual amount of gaying around, reading new moon (first twilight book I read in years ok. Twilight was out when I was about primary 4 or 5 FYI), watching movies, supressing chocolate/ice cream craves.
Am now painfully studying for the bloody chemical calculations test cos I don't. frigging. want. to. come. back. to. school. on. a. frigging. holiday. just. to. listen. to. Lmmy's. incomprehensible. ear-splitting. babble. damnit.

It'd be kinda nice to have a chem teacher who doesn't speak in garbled sentences. My guidebook teaches better than she does. At least I hope it will or I'm screwed.

zZzZz have a million things to do and a million deadlines to meet.

P.S. I DON'T HAVE H1N1 OR H2N3 AND NEITHER DO I HAVE CANCER. screw off -_-

melancholy

2009-08-01T16:16:00.002+08:00

Do you know how it feels? Like cancer in your body. That you can never, ever get rid of.

Perhaps it's too late.

a little more luck than a little bit

2009-07-29T22:26:00.001+08:00

Well how fucking encouraging can you get. You are so bloody self-righteous it could be the book of obnoxious records. Loser.

a thousand falalas

2009-07-29T12:34:00.000+08:00

HELLO AWESOME WORLD HEHEHEEH.
Am inexplicably jubilant today :D Had an amazing sleep in, awesome weather outside my window beckons me to go cycling!!!!1
However despite the awesomeness of the day and my slight illness (WHOOHOO THANKS TO SWITCHING COKE WITH THE SICK CHIN YSTRDAY AND MACS @ 10/11+ PM AND PRATA WITH CURRY) I shall bravely attempt to take on the horror commonly known as Chemistry and the essay-writing assignment Mrs N graciously bestowned upon my willing shoulders.

OK SO GAY HAHHAAHHAHAAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! & OBS IS REPLACING MY DAMAGED CAM YAYYYYYY & I GOT MY PHONE BACK! (lol I bet jx you're damn happy seeing this.)
And since there is not a scrap of edible matter residing in this house I finally cooked myself instant noodles after a month-long hiatus!!! (thanks to OBS also)

YAY IF I FINISH H/W EARLY I'LL GO OUT :D

JING^2 HEHEHE SEND ME YESTERDAY'S PICS! :D
LOL SUDDENLY RECALL PINNING THE UUBER HIGHWAIST PANTS WITH SAFETY PINS IN THE MOST OBSCENE MANNER AND RUNNING OUT OF SCHOOL AT AROUND 10PM+ AND PLAYING AROUND ATOP MT. FABER :D
AHSGUITAR IS PWNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGE.

♥

2009-07-28T23:27:00.009+08:00

AHS GUITAR IS THE

AWESOME EPIC LOVE ♥ :D

Better than a boyfriend! Better than a girlfriend!
Yayyyyyy Mr shi so smexy + cute :D COWSTIX FTW :D
Syf '11 better get gold with hononurs again or we come back scold you in english chinese malay cantonese hokkien and teochew!!!!!!

AHS GE 4EVAAAAAAAAAA

rawrrrrrrr

2009-07-27T19:36:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday piying luv xD I know you like the board with THREE BLOODY YEARS OF UNGLAMNESS!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH.
Nvm, at least you cried xD good for you :D

I want a bobbbbbbbbbbb ):
Like Monique Coleman or Nicole Richie's. I think I prefer the latter.
EH D THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT -_- nvm I know you like it, see I got taste. Now even I like it. Whee I love saying I told you so XD

I WANT A BOBBBBBBBBBBB.

PERFORMANCE TMR! WHOOHOO SHAKE MINISTER'S HANDXZXZXZXZ.

OHYA WE GOT FRASIA TODAY!!!!!111 ^^ FRASIA FTW!!

AND I HAVE AN XTREMEMEMELY HIGH IQ OF 73.6!!!!! XD YAY

-

2009-07-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

tell me what am I supposed to do

Hitler and friends

2009-07-24T05:49:00.002+08:00

Yay sortof finished studying history. Wl hitler and his friends are super bitchy -_- Backstab awhile then declare war.
It's friday today yay, looking forward to dinner l8r! :D Hehehh broke the eat-out-once pact alr. ._.
Epic super major fail!

w,
i have to remind myself that if you wanted to talk to me, you would.
— c

http://crushed.tumblr.com/

if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me

2009-07-23T05:38:00.003+08:00

have been looking at flowers for the past hour D: Ok I think I'm not gna be a florist alr. (most) Singapore flowers so ugly.
Have so much !#$@#$ that I don't know where to start. Well even if I knew where to start I still can't.

-_- ok I get angry thinking of it. Nvm change topic. Amath tuition is torture. Joy C still sucks balls. Still feel ________ about ____. O lvl oral and listening is screwed. I am screwed for the history common test. My phone was confiscated by Mr H.
But I got my sim card out. HAHHAHAHAHAHA LOUSY. Using jx's old phone now. Wl I think it's even better than mine even though the camera sucks and it's kinda irritating.

Meh I can't find the post picture button so I won't. zZzZ getting fat anw, still went to eat KFC with ctsn jx ky px yesterday. And I keep wanting to eat the schools' chicken rice. Pracise, chem remedial, and history project l8r and they all happen more or less simultaneously -_- Then I've to go practise organ and study history and do overdue h/w. Meh sucks.

At least it's friday tmr.

-

2009-07-21T19:28:00.000+08:00

you don't know anything at all.
screw everything.

Haahahahah

2009-07-20T16:12:00.000+08:00

Hi this is my third time typing with Joyce's wifi phone because i accidentally deleted the first one and she deleted the second one ._. Epic major fail. Eh but very fun typing with stylus :D i want her phone XD no actually i just want wifi. Woman studying for her physics test now HAHA bio pwns :D am at tampines one subway yay so fun XD k bye do history essay that was due today ._.

Moments lost in time like tears in the rain

2009-07-19T22:14:00.005+08:00

Meh it's 5:21 a.m. now I think I woke up around 4 and couldn't get back to sleep again. Did the following quiz last night but internet crashed halfway through so didn't publish it.
I had a nice dream. Or a nice semi-dream, because I knew I was dreaming so I guess I was trying to control it or smth.
Well but sometimes dreams are just dreams and nothing more.

-- Last night:

Ok I are very bored. Quiz koped from CTSN :D

Step One:
Spell your name with songs:

Let the flames begin - Paramore
I'm yours - Jason mraz
Your call - Secondhand senerade
If it kills me - Jason mraz
Nothing good about goodbye - Hinder
Gives you hell - the All American Rejects

Step Two:
Name:
S__ Liying
Birthdate:
24th Jan '94
Nickname:
Meowser, chicken, Evil saw, Saw, bimbo (ball)
Eye Colour:
Very dark brown. Like dark chocolate. Me hungry.
Hair Colour:
Black with brown sounds cool 8)
Zodiac Sign:
Aquarius/rooster :D

Step Three:
The shoes you wore today:
Pink converses that got wet in the rain. ):
Your weaknesses:
SHINY STUFF xD
And cute guys like Japan 5/chace crawford :D
Your Fear(s):
Creepy things ._.
Insects.
Amath! Emath!!!! H. CHINESE D:
And seafood.
Your Perfect Pizza:
HEHEHE CHEEZY CRUST WITH DORITOES/ICE CREAM/CANDY NICE STUFF AS TOPPING :D

Step Four:
Your best physical Feature?
My braces. HAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAH BLIND YOU
Your Bedtime?
You don't want to know -_-

Step Five:
This or Thats
Pepsi or coke?
Both. Bubble tea! :D
McDonalds or Burger King?
Mcdonalds :D Yay indigestible fries.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea?
What's nestea?
Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate XD
Cappuccino or Coffee?
BOTH :D with cream :D Like starbucks.
Drool.

Step Six:
Do You...?
Smoke?
nope.
Sing?
horribly xD
Dance?
during camp mass dances.
Take a shower everyday?
Unless in obs -_-
3 DAYS WITHOUT SHOWERING UGHHHHHHHH
Have a crush?
I'm married XD
Been in love?
MARRIED LA.
Want to go to college?
Depends :X Future very scary.
Liked Secondary School?
Ok la. Sec one da best :D
Want to get married?
Alr am ._.
Get Motion Sickness?
Sometimes D:
Think you're a health freak?
Heck no hahahah fast food ftw
Get along with your parents?
ErRrrRrmmmmMmMmm.

Step Seven:
In the past month have you...?
Gone to the mall?
Yup.
Eaten an entire box of Oreo?
Yup. When studying ok.
Eaten Sushi?
Yup :D
Been on Stage?
Eh no.
Made cookies?
Ate them :D
Gone Skinny Dipping?
Nope ._.
Stolen Anything?
Nope ._.

Step Eight:
Have you ever...?
Played a game that required removal of Clothing?
Don't rmbr playing that kind ._.
Flashed Anyone?
ERMMMMMMM. HEH.
Been beaten up?
Nope
Shoplifted?
Nope. HAHAHHA I'M A GOOD KID :D

Step Nine:
Age you hope to be married?
Eh 20 odd? Facebook says 32 leh ._.
Number of Children?
Um. Some :D
Describe your Dream Wedding
AT THE SEASIDE~ YAY~ WITH A SUNSET~ AND A RAINBOW~ AND BLUE SKY~ AND ALL OUR FRIENDS~ XD
What country would you like to visit?
I wna travel the whole world :D

Step Ten:
In the opposite Sex...
Best eye colour?
no preference
Best hair colour?
no preference either. No ah beng hair plz.
Short hair or long hair?
SHORT DUH. Korean guys' hair very fugly. SO LONG AND GAY PLZ.
Height?
At least 170cm plz ._.

Step Eleven:
Number of people I could trust?
Love many trust a few.
Number of CDs that I own?
HAHAH mostly steal songs from friends.
Number of tattoos?
Nope. Pain = scary D:
Number of piercings?
Five :D Had more.

Personal Stuffs:
Who were you with yesterday?
My girlies XD HAHAHA I SOUND LIKE A PIMP.
What woke you up this morning?
Ringing phone ._. Beside my head.
Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
Tmr's a monday and mondays are... pure evil. Ok but got some highlights so maybe yes XD but then again there's double chinese. And amath and emath. ._.
Do you like anybody?
yeah everyone XD
Ever thrown up in public?
I think so ._.
Passed out because of Alcohol?
nope.
Whats on your mind RIGHT NOW?
I wna eat doritoes, and how I'm gna die tmr sighhhhh
What kind of home would you like?
I want a castle :D With rooms every colour of the rainbow :D Heheh and my own swimming pool.
What do you want to be when you grow up?
HAHAHAH ACCORDING TO CTSN/MEL I'LL BE SOME TREECUTTER HAHAHAHAHAHAH *VROOMS SAW*
Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
The future's a surprise :D
Do you like candy necklaces?
When I can eat them XD ok lah if it looks like candy also quite nice :D but not the sticky kind l8r get stuck eew.
When was the last time you fell over or ran into something?
Argh don't remind me ._.
Do you listen to music everyday?
HAHAHA YA :D
P P P POKER FACE P P POKER FACE!
(mum mum mum mah)
Do you still go trick or treating?
Never did leh, so sad but I want to XD
What was the last thing you ate?
berry yogurt. I want frolickkkkkkkkk.
Are you a fast typer?
Average. Ok but I fail at typing tests hahahahh *remembers*
Whats your favourite type of soda?
Mango soda!!! THE ONE AT PIZZA HUT TEEHEE
Have you ever moved?
Yup. I liked that old house but this one also not bad lah.
Have you ever won an award?
LOL YEAH. Damn damn damn long ago during preschool. I was the best student ok!:D
Are you listening to music right now?
yup. Good charlotte! :D
How long till your birthday?
Idk. You do the math -_-
When were you the saddest in your whole life?
I think it's an on-off thing ._.
What time is it?
10:47pm
Do you use ebay to buy or sell?
nopeeeeee
Who makes you mad?
Unreasonable !#$!@#.
Have you ever heard a song written about you?
HAHAHAH EH I WANT. So romantic plz hahaha.
Oh wait got one but that was more like erm. Ok nvm.
Something you want to happen in 2010?
O levels L1R5 <6
HAHAHA IMPOSSIBLE PLZ GIVEN MY CURRENT STATE. But a girl can dream. IN YOUR FACE _______. :D

HONESTY SECTION
Honestly, whats your underwear colour?
Er can I not say. ._.
Honestly, whats on your mind?
You, me, everything in between.
Honestly, have you done something bad today?
Erm I threw fish I didn't want to eat down the bin cos my mom wouldn't let me go watch harry potter if I didn't eat it.
Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
JOYCE WOMAN -_- WITH HER WIFI PHONE WLAOOOO
Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
EH YA. Wlao don't need go school ):
Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
Results -_- And irritating ____.
Honestly, do you bite your nails?
Nope :D
Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
LOL MAYBE LEH THERE WAS ONCE I WAS DAMN THIN
but not now obviously seeing how much I eat -_-
Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
Yes ):
Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now?
Secrets but not sure about the magnitude.
Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?
Erm maybe not a friend.....
Honestly, are you in denial?
I think so. Liying grow up and learn your tingxie -_-
Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat?
Er yes :X FATNESS.
Honestly, do you like anyone?
Yeah my peng you :D
Honestly, does anyone like you?
Everyone does plz.

ANGER SECTION
What do you do when you're mad?
Rant in my head. Sulk. Give everyone the screw off or I kill you stare. Maybe rant on my blog/writing pad. Play music damn loud. Abuse stuff. D:
Whats the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
Erm. Idk act rashly.
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
I hope not.
Do you swear when you are mad?
Yeah. Kinda.

CRYING SECTION
When was the last time you actually cried?
Quite long ago leh HEHEH unlike some people who cried during harry potter *eyebrow*
Every cried yourself to sleep?
Ya. Emo.
Do certain songs make you cry?
Heck yes D: Emo x2
What usually makes you cry?
Lots of stuff. But I think I forgot how to cry recently.

HAPPY SECTION
Are you usually a happy person?
On average yes unless it's a bad day or I'm pmsing or smth
What makes you the happiest?
My friends :D And nice... stuff.
Do you believe in yourself?
I hope so.
When people say they think you're pretty/goodlooking, are you happy?
Er kinda paiseh. Ya but happy la unless I think they're lying -_-

-

2009-07-18T11:05:00.001+08:00

I am very sad now.
And I was reading letters from the crushed.

Heartbreakkkkkkkk D:

Neurotic to the bone

2009-07-18T10:05:00.003+08:00

This week was pretty good :D

Should stop eating out so much though. Pizza hut twice a week + macs + subway + frolick ._.
Next week I'm gna limit myself to eating out once.
The amath test was ok. For the first time in ahs history I could do all the questions xcept for the last one :D But I prlly did them wrong so...
Still an improvement anw. Bio was horrible. Oral was ok. Hahah before oral everyone was listening to CT's leng xiao hua. I think we were so nervous it was funny xD
Siew mai!!!!!! HAHAHAH XD
And the last lunch on friday! HAHAH TIME CAPSULE :D :D

Harry potter later :D

GO. STUDY. NAO.
Stuff nightmares are made of :D
(picture koped from py)

Deja vu. Perhaps, perhaps not.
I still do, but not so much anymore. Starting to think I'll be okay.
You'll be okay.

:)

2009-07-16T06:19:00.004+08:00

Recently I've been thinking about the first time I met you.

Oral's later. Harry potty on saturday! :D provided we got tix. Py gna pull teeth hahahahahahahah >D

Eraser fighting ftw :>
(Lol even though ky ctsn & v kept owning me)

hehehehehe

2009-07-12T23:53:00.002+08:00

Yay I luv you jairia and zt xD Don't know what I'd do w/o you hahahahaahahahahahah.
Luv luv many many deep deep! XD
Oh ya and Chng too :) Even though you are gay and irritating.
Wlao now everytime I tell someone I'm 'chionging h/w' the first thing they ask is 'Jb homework ah' ._.
And the worst part is that IT'S TRUE!!!!!!
THE HORROR OF HIGHER CHINESE.

Argh the evils of Procrastination.

Actually I feel kinda bad having to stand up everytime jb asks who never hand in work. Owells.

-

2009-07-11T22:10:00.003+08:00

i wna start over again. Be a different person. But how can I when I'm alr so far gone?

schadenfreude

2009-07-11T20:02:00.006+08:00

Lots of emo posts coming up I should think.

Screw everything. everything's so messed up I don't even know where to start.
And I have so sick running through my head and it's not helping matters.
meh shit I know I should be happy with everything I have now but arguhuhgajshfaisdasdgaykibastard. Bah everything's perfectly fine but that's the problem, nothing really is.

I wish I were a goldfish.

fml.

pointless

2009-07-11T10:25:00.004+08:00

Obs and choir concert :D
Hahah the obs one was on the first day I think when we were still relatively clean and unaware of the horrors we would soon face. Oh this is random but the test-if-your-life-vest-works drill was fun :D
And the choir concert xD Didn't take as many pictures as we usually do but nvm the above one is one of my favourites from that night :D Hahahah just seems so typical us. Wish joyous/xiu/sj were there. ):

Been xtremely buzy since school started ): Sucks rawr. Sianed to the max. Clara says I'm not myself recently (ok since yesterday) hahaha yah totally agree I paid attention in Amath and handed in Emath h/w on time man :D And I'm gng to chiong h/w now. And Chinese oral! D:
very jing zhang ya.
English, Bio, Amath tests + Olvl oral next week D:

And the bio tcher sucks. Everyone self-study bio alr. Need to watch weight ): Eating a lot recently. Really a lot -_- Ystrday I had biscuit sticks + chicken rice + frolick + mr bean for lunch -_- and I went home to eat dinner. Gay ok.
Oya Jx is a himbo. AND I LOST MY LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE ):
*heartbreakxzxz* Bet is jx keep playing in class thats why drop lor.

Alright bye chiong hw ):

Coming apart at the seams. Don't know why I even try. Didn't expect this to happen, but then again many things I thought would happen didn't and more things I thought would never happen didn't. Alright nvm.

goodbye cruel world

2009-07-06T21:07:00.005+08:00

1. I am rly gna get flayed tmr. Skinned alive and deep fried in a way only jb can perfect.
2. Hair is rly very short. ): heartbreak.
3. Am still looking at the picture with the Japanese players :D hehehe no.5 very cute.
4. Kill me nao
5. Later

-later-

6. hate to say it but this happens all the time and I never learn. I forsee green form #2 for not doing hw.
7. choing hw tmr morning with hairy! vroomz.

p.s. I didn't rebond my hair. Hahah stylist just straightened it after cutting. Looks horrible now anw. Sorry sorry cheated a lot of feelings :X I'll get the retribution I deserve tmr.

over right now

2009-07-06T03:42:00.004+08:00

Rebonded hair! :D
Sorry for the picspam am very thrilled :>

Anw I woke up in the middle of the night and can't sleep again. School's starting tmr, argh.
The stylist cut my hair a bit short though it was much longer damnit. Back to it's length 4 mths ago. Major turnoff ):

Sometimes it's easier to think about the shallow things and leave the depths alone.

bahhh

2009-07-05T12:17:00.002+08:00

Waiting for my hair to dry before going out now hahahh. I miss ayg. No school tmr yay :D

Chinese book test the first day school reopens. Die plz, a book and the chinese version of reader's digest and I didn't read anything at all. Have chem after that and double chinese also >: Jb's is going to flay me sigh. At least there's no math. I hope I don't get into chinese remedial but that's kinda impossible argh. Ahs sucks big time.
Insect bites from OBS are getting worse shittttt very scared I don't want scars.

Ok bye getting depressed thinking about school ):

stupid liying

2009-07-04T22:13:00.004+08:00

Bahhh why do I keep doing stupid things. Last time I spray painted my calculator and it choked and died now I cut up some old slippers and superglued them (and my fingers) together (don't ask me how I can type) and then I spray painted the lot. Now I have superglue and spray paint on me eew. And it's 10pm I wna sleep soon.

Owells life will find a way, meanwhile the ayg photos! :D Screw discretion damnit. AYG was funnnnnn next year volunteer for YOG! :D

On a different note, chinese Olvl oral on the 16th. Dead plz. I think I'll have to drop higher chinese at the rate I'm going. Liying stop slacking you didn't do anything this holidays YOU DAIIIII.

Everything and nothing (has changed).

Bye off to pry fingers apart.

edit/
ok success! But I now realise that there's also some superglue in my hair. Ok at least it's a bit only. Argh.

:D :D

2009-07-03T19:29:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAH THE FIBA 33 BASKETBALLERS ARE DAMN. CUTE. HAHAHHA I SWEAR ALL THE GIRLS WERE GOING GAGA OVER THEM HAHAHAH. ESPECIALLY JORDAN & JAPAN ZOMGZ EVERYONE SPASM-ED!!

I have never blushed like that before srsly. (Most) local guys are noob. Now I am even more keen on travelling the world :D

JAPAN 5 & JORDAN 8!!!!! *droolxzx*

k bai will stop bimboing around now. Save the rest for the finals tmr! :D

\

2009-07-02T18:47:00.003+08:00

Wtf is wrong with you. Why can't you just be ...
ugh nvm.

\

2009-07-01T22:06:00.005+08:00

Pretentious little two-faced bastard. Who the fuck do you think you are. What the fuck do you think you are. You. are. disgusting. Well it's a small wonder then don't you think? (You seriously need to do some soul searching.) Too bad I'm already way past caring what you think of me. Or maybe I never cared because you're that pathetic (ying wei ni zhi de). Bloody hypocrite.

This existence has to be the most tragic story of all.
People you counted on will let you down. Harbouring high hopes means that you will fall harder. To love means to be hurt. And you don't even know why you put up with all this.

This is when you no longer trust anyone. When you give up believing.

Well misery loves company.

-

Ok sorry. Normal life now. AYG was quite cool though I didn't have a partner at my station. Kept running over to chin's station to talk hahah. Some teams were scary + dao but some teams were very nice + friendly :D The ayg volunteers were also very nice xD This policeman covered for me while I ran off to get 100plus hahah :D
Walked down with chin and a sec 2 who was trying for IP. (celine if i'm not mistaken)
Sometimes I wish I'd left ahs. But then that means no SYF'09/Student camp/OBS/AYG. Oh nvm too late anw.
Ughh sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I had made different choices. Would I still be here? Would I be happier? Don't know if I believe in fate or destiny or any of that trash anymore.
Sometimes I wish I were born smart. outgoing. pretty. Someone who isn't revolted at the thought of herself. A better person. A different person.

Hate the way my life's running itself but I don't know how to change it.

Ah shit. Nvm bye.

my own monster

2009-06-29T20:49:00.001+08:00

I don't trust myself.
I am utterly revolting.